right now nothing makes sense. i've been staring into the wall since i got home. and that's almost three hours now. why? i don't know. i'm just thinking. about everything. i guess i just feel lonely. and when i feel lonely, i think. i'm also listening to music. music that right now makes me cry. it feels good to cry. i need it. sometimes i just want everything to be different. i don't know what i want. right now know nothing other than that i'm lonely. lonely and sad. yay.